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Welcome to rosy melissa!
MY CANCER STORY
My life started very rough. I lived a happy and carefree life until I was 4 years old. At 4 years old, I got diagnosed with acute leukemia. Blood cancer. Carefree as I was up until that point – my life changed into days and nights in hospitals, chemotherapy, needles and a lot of other intense medicine for the upcoming two years. Since January 23th in 2008 – I can say that I have officially survived cancer. I am a cancer survivor but life after cancer is challenging. Even though I’ve been officially cured for over 12 years – I still get scared when I’m sick. Scared the cancer is back.
Chemotherapy does a lot of damage to your body. It destroys the malignant cells but also destroys a lot of good cells. The medicines still have an impact on my life as it is today. No one really talks about it and to be fair – I don’t talk about it enough either. I’m tired everyday from the chemotherapy. It doesn’t go away with a good night sleep. I can wake up and be so-so-tired without any explanation.
I have been scared to talk about it on my blog – which is why I am only now writing this and having it somewhere hidden on my blog. Not a lot of people understand what cancer does to you mentally and physically. I can handle the physical part. I’m happy, I can live the life I want, travel and start my own business. Things I never thought I could do.
The mental part is harder. People who do not understand it when I tell them how tired I am or people who don’t want anything to do with me because I had cancer. They don’t want to hear about it. Not everyone understands that I can’t go out clubbing and get back into the daily life the next day – my body can’t handle these things. That’s totally okay with me because I don’t need that in my life.
Whether I like it or not, the leukemia will always be part of me. So yes, I am a cancer survivor and don’t have it anymore. It’s always going to be with me. And to be honest, that’s fine with me. It made me to the person I am today. And yes, I am very happy with the woman I have become. I’m proud of myself and my body. I’m proud of how far I’ve come. I got friends who completely accept me as I am and I do not need anyone else who does not. It got hard when I was a teenager and I developed very bad social anxiety and a depression, but I survived that too.